“If you haven’t already heard and you’ll allow me to dish some gossip this morning,” local radio personality Bob Oakes began, “the Royal Family has confirmed that the Duchess of Cambridge, Kate Middleton, is pregnant with her second child.”
And just like that, my local NPR station went right into some other bit of news, or maybe even a station promo. I don’t really remember. I just did some quick calculations in my head given Prince George’s birth last year… just a little younger than Judah, so – 14 months? I confirm the number with myself.
Before I can even help it, there’s that lump in my throat, the feeling of the floor dropping out from underneath my feet, the pull in my stomach, the sting of a tear at the corner of each eye – those all-too-familiar feelings from even my darkest days following my infertility diagnosis. I’m taken aback at this strange, confused flush of emotions while my own 15-month old son sits in the backseat of the car.
Five years later, with a child of my very own and still – still – I can’t shake the way a pregnancy announcement like this hits me. I thought it strange how this news affected me – I’m supposed to be over all of this emotional baggage that infertility likes to hurl at its patients, right?
In truth, infertility never really leaves us, no matter how or if we resolve.
So if you’re still trying for baby number one and Kate Middleton’s pregnancy announcement got to you: I get it. I’m sorry that you’re hurting and I hope that you too, will have an announcement of your own very soon.
If you already have baby number one or even number two, but your family still isn’t complete and Kate Middleton’s pregnancy announcement got to you: I get it, too. No one likes to be lapped.
If you’re like me and have one child after a long battle with infertility and you’ve all but made up your mind that you are in fact, “one and done” – and Kate Middleton’s pregnancy announcement still got to you: I know how odd it feels to feel bitter about the news even though for all intents and purposes, your own family building journey is over.
So no, it wasn’t just you if Kate Middleton’s pregnancy announcement got to you.
We’ll all find a way to survive the next six or so months of #RoyalBaby fever – after all, we made it through the first one.