These are for you.


(I hope you like tulips.) According to a 2010 report from the National Retail Federation, Mother's Day is second-most popular holiday for fresh flower purchases, behind Christmas. People will spend $1.9 billion on flowers for Mother's Day. That's billion with a b. If I could buy you all flowers today, I would. These are for the ... [Read on...]

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Howdy folks! Did you know I write for as their Infertility Expert? I feel like I completely forgot to announce this here and just slapped up the badge on my sidebar without any context! I've been writing for since May and have published 45 articles so far. I wanted to feature just a quick roundup of posts; I'm hoping ... [Read on...]

Eat, Drink and Be Merry – Or Don’t: An Infertility Holiday Survival Guide

Surviving Infertility and the Holidays

In case you missed it, the rush for the end of year holidays has begun. I find, that for the life of the infertile, that dash begins right around Hallowe'en, although Back to School season has begun creeping in on this territory, too. From Hallowe'en it's practically light warp speed straight to Christmas. Forget Thanksgiving. That poor bastard of ... [Read on...]

An announcement, a proposal, a prayer and a promise.

I have been writing this post, over and over and over, trying best to figure out just how I was going to phrase my words to you today. There's so much I want to say, so I imagine this will be a wordy post. I figured the best way to get through it all was to break it down into four parts: an announcement, a proposal, a prayer and a promise. 1. ... [Read on...]

11dp3dt: Pulling in the Oars

pull in your oars. trust the river. it will be okay.

A Wise Woman once told me: sometimes, you have to pull in your oars and let the river take you where it wants to go. You have to let go of that control and instead be carried by - and ultimately, trust - the Universe. There is no amount of wishing, praying, begging or bargaining that will change what's happening in my womb. I cannot use ... [Read on...]

Show Your Love with #GROWTeamZoll at Noon Today

The first waiting game begins. We have six embryos, doin' their thang in a petri dish. G-dwilling, all six make it to transfer tomorrow. All it takes is one. Larry and I have been calling ourselves Team Zoll for some time now. We even have shirts that say "Team Zoll Est. 2008" on the front and "01" and "02" respectively on the backs. And in a ... [Read on...]


When I saw the caller ID on my phone flash "Blocked" I knew it was from the clinic. Ah yes, my fertilization report, I thought. I looked at the clock: a little before 2pm. Finally! When she said we had six embryos, I thought my phone must've cut out. Surely she meant to say six-teen. "I'm sorry, say again?" I said into the phone, pressing it ... [Read on...]

CD35: Avinu Malkenu

Today is Yom Kippur. Our egg retrieval is at 7am today. I will not be online today in observance of the Day of Atonement, but please feel free to leave your thoughts and well wishes here in the comments. I wrote this last night - a smattering of thoughts written on the eve of our egg retrieval; my apologies if they don't make sense - I just ... [Read on...]

CD26: My Three Wishes for the New Year

The You Project

L'shana tovah, folks. The Jewish New Year begins an incredibly sacred period known as the Days of Awe. In synagogues around the world, Jews began yet another new year by hearing the story of Hannah chanted aloud. It's interesting how the subject of infertility gets perhaps one of the most primo spots on the Jewish calendar; it's an thoughtful ... [Read on...]

CD7: A power ballad and a prayer.

I'm so blessed that these bracelets were made for me, packed full of gorgeous, healing intention, by two friends - Suzy, from & my friend Natalie.

Ultrasound went well yesterday morning and I got my med update from my clinic late yesterday afternoon. Looks like we're upping the estrogen to pad out the 'ute. Tomorrow, I'll go from 1mg of oral estradiol twice a day (half a pill daily) to 2mg twice daily (2 whole pills each day). And I also get to add Estrace patches to the mix, changing them ... [Read on...]