Love, Sex and Rock n’ Roll: Happy Valentine’s Day.


We're not usually big celebrators of Valentine's Day in our house. For several years when Larry and I were dating, I was often performing in a production of The Vagina Monologues. Since getting married, our anniversary (five years this year, folks!) falls at the end of January and usually steals the romantic spotlight first thing each year. We decided that it was time to formalize our Valentines' observance, so we settled on the possible exchange of cards and the definite exchange of ... Read on »

Behind and Beyond: Reflections on the Brink of a New Year

Happy New Year from The Infertility Voice

I love New Year's Eve. It's such a precarious, if invented demarcation between the old and the new, the past and the future, a sliver of the present in transition. For many, it's the tabula rasa, the turn of the wheel, a moment of both ending and beginning. How fitting that Janus, the two-faced Roman god who faces both his past and future, should be the inspiration for the month of January. I've reflected on 2012 through my blog posts, but it's hard to encapsulate and reflect on my year just ... Read on »

Eat, Drink and Be Merry – Or Don’t: An Infertility Holiday Survival Guide

Surviving Infertility and the Holidays

In case you missed it, the rush for the end of year holidays has begun. I find, that for the life of the infertile, that dash begins right around Hallowe'en, although Back to School season has begun creeping in on this territory, too. From Hallowe'en it's practically light warp speed straight to Christmas. Forget Thanksgiving. That poor bastard of a holiday's been left in the dust. And Hanukkah? Well... we get our seasonal endcaps filled with gelt, blue and silver decorations, and cheap ... Read on »

Thankful, Grateful, Abundant.

Photo by Keiko Zoll

I am thankful for my infertility. I'll let that sink in for a moment. It's true: I am both grateful and thankful for my infertility. Not exactly something you'd expect to hear just two days before Thanksgiving, but there it is. For all the pain, the mental and physical anguish of the past three and a half years, I wouldn't take it back. My life has been changed in such remarkable ways that, without our infertility battle, without the deep wounds of my infertility diagnosis - I wouldn't ... Read on »

The Gift I Can’t Get My Husband… Yet.

Honor the Someday Dads

I love giving gifts, to the point where I start to think very obsessively about not only the gift itself, but the gift recipient. I start thinking about all the little things I know about that person and how to make that gift the most relevant, awesome thing in their life right now. Case in point: my niece turns two next weekend. Shopping for a two-year old is a bit of a challenge, but I've gone with a theme to her gift and have been buying pretty much every iteration of that theme every time ... Read on »

A Look Back at 2011: The Year of the Zoll

Chinese astrology dictates that 2011 is the Year of the Rabbit. Team Zoll, that is, Larry and I, heartily disagree. 2011 was the Year of the Zoll, you see. No, really: We started noticing this shortly after the New Year this year as we wrote the date. 2011, when written, looked remarkably like our last name. So we started calling 2011 the Year of the Zoll and it just stuck. The wine bottle pictured above is a bottle of this year's Beaujolais Nouveau. It's a young wine to be drunk as soon as ... Read on »

The Ghost of My Christmases Past

I was inspired this weekend by Jjiraffe's post this week about growing up with "It's a Wonderful Life." She, like me, has forgone Christmas for Hanukkah due to a loving, amazing Jewish husband. Even though I converted to Judaism 4 years ago and have been living Jewishly for easily over 10 years at this point... It's still really hard to let go of Christmas. . . . We still refer to the wandering spirit of Captain Marshall at the odd bump or noise in our house. But I think Capt. Marshall has been ... Read on »

The Infertility Holiday Dash

Folks, I am not a runner, let me just put that out there right now. And yet, it's that time of year where I need to throw on my pair of running shoes and lace them up tight, because we have a 64-day dash from Halloween to January 2nd. . . . Oh, hi. It's been, um, over a week. NaBloPoMo & NaNoWriMo - I appeared to have dropped the ball on both. Words Empowered has been full steam ahead (winners of the giveaway are here). I've been working for my first two clients on my first three projects, ... Read on »

Time Warp Tuesday: Thanksgiving & Help Save Our Sam!

NaBloPoMo, ICLW AND Time Warp Tuesday? Boy howdy there's a lot going on today! So let's get right to it. Today's Time Warp Tuesday theme is Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is such a loaded term for me. It's my favorite holiday. But it's also the time of year I associate with what I believe was the chain of events that led me to my eventual infertility. And this chain of events started 11 years ago, when I had my left ovary removed in emergency surgery. It happened the day after Thanksgiving when I ... Read on »

Finding Adonai at the Bar Mitzvah


Tonight at sundown, the Jewish New Year - Rosh HaShanah - begins. As Jews, we enter into the ten holiest days of the year, the Days of Awe, to culminate in the holiest day on the Jewish calendar, Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement. This is one of my favorite times of the year: the holiday is about beginnings, sweetness, and humble reverence. It's only fitting that today I share the second part of the story of my conversion to Judaism. You can read part one from Monday here: Finding G-d in the ... Read on »